Monday, December 18, 2006

It must be nice

It must be nice to be who you are.
It must be nice to have never been beaten
It must be nice to have nice things
and never have had them destroyed
It must be nice to have never been raped
It must be nice to have been accepted
It must have been nice to be able to make a stand
without paying a price no one would be able to pay
It must be nice to have been loved your entire life
to never figure out the significance of a Supreme Court ruling
at the age of 8
It must have been nice to grow up knowing you are special
and special in a good way
It must be easy to live without the nightmares
It must be easy to wake up in the morning
It must be easy to have friends
when the worst betrayal you have had was high school bullshit
It must have been nice to have never run or hide or had to use your skills to avoid a beating
It must have made life so easy
Sometimes I wonder if you even know
Sometimes I wonder, if I told you, would you be able to handle it
or would you shrink away
in fear
in revulsion
from the crushing weight that I carry so effortlessly every moment of my life

Even in my sleep

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

might've been nice to be her

but it's a hell of a lot better to be you

i don't know her, but
i think you're fuckin awesome